going to get better

if you didn't hear,i was put in the hospital the other day after a suicide attempt.a traumatic thing happen that i don't want to talk about but i was diagnosed with ptsd.
while there i was zoned out for the most part but they did give me crayons and paper to draw with.and,naturally i doodled a bunch of emh and tt stuff,discovering that it actually got me to focus a little and help me get back into the real world a bit.
i was allowed out today and told i will be put on med and given a doctor to help me out
as unnerved as i have been,and still kind of am,i know this is the first step to getting better.
while i was there i had a lot of time to think.although i'm scared,nervous,and many other things,i also realized i missed my friends,and i wanted to be with them.
that's what keeps me going.